Monday 25 June 2018

first baby

Start of September 2013 I was pregnant, although this was not the first pregnancy. I had been pregnant in the summer of 2011 and miscarried at about 6.5 weeks as I had a Mirena coil at the time. I kept my first pregnancy a secret and when I miscarried I kept it to myself for just over two years. I decided that I didn't want to go through that alone again.

We had decided to try for a baby in the run-up to our first anniversary. I came off the pill in January and we stopped taking precautions. It wasn't until the beginning of September that I realised my period was late. I took a pregnancy test and it turned positive. I had also been having regular blood tests with the doctor to check my hormones as for some reason my prolactin had been high for the last year. The day after I took a test my GP called to tell me my blood tests had shown something and he believed I was pregnant. He did my paperwork for the midwives and congratulated me. We decided to tell close family and best friends. We started with parents and then siblings the day we took the test. our friends we told over the next few days. It was nice to know that they were there if I needed the support.

I was 5weeks5days and woke in a lot of pain, I felt like someone had stabbed me in the stomach. This scared me the first thought was it could be ectopic as I knew I had Endometriosis and that it could cause Ectopic pregnancies if the endometriosis is in the tubes. My husband rushed me to the hospital and I was sent to the early pregnancy unit. There they monitored me over the rest of the night until the doctor came around first thing in the morning to give me a scan.

I have never been so nervous felt a bit like Schrodinger's cat, In my mind I was both pregnant and not pregnant, thinking about all the what if things that could be happening. He was scanning my stomach his face gave nothing away at all. The screen was turned away from me so I had no idea what was going on. Then he turned and said you're still pregnant and you had a cyst burst on your ovary. I felt so relieved and happy that my baby was still ok. He said he could also see some adhesions around my right ovary, and asked me about my endometriosis. He said when I had had my family to get referred back to gynaes to get my endometriosis looked at as I would most likely need an op. He booked for me to come back in 2 weeks to check all was still fine after the bleed from the burst cyst was quite big (he could see the blood that had collected around my womb).

At 6 weeks the sickness hit and I couldn't keep anything down not even water. back to the hospital I went I was told it sounded like Hypermerisis and was given anti-sickness tablets and sent on my way. I would repeatedly go back to the hospital for this and struggled with sickness all the way through the end of pregnancy.

At 8 weeks I went back for my next scan to check up on how the baby was doing. They started the scan and said, "we have a heartbeat" and turned the monitor around and there was this little blob looking thing with a little flickering blob. my baby had a heartbeat I began to get more excited but still couldn't get too excited until this baby was safe in my arms.

I had constant pain during my pregnancy. At times felt like my womb was being ripped apart bit by bit. the more the baby grew the worse the pain got. I got told it was normal pregnancy ligament pains, that I shouldn't get pain from endometriosis during pregnancy. so things being attached together and stretching won't cause pain, even my logic could work that things being attached together and a womb growing means thing will stretch and possibly hurt. I felt at times dismissed by the doctors

Most older friends and family would keep saying to me bad pregnancy easy labour. I was hoping they would be right as I didn't enjoy being pregnant, sadly this was not true at all. By 38 weeks I had had three bleeds and 2 non-movements At 34 weeks during one of the bleeds the doctors said the baby is engaged we think you might go into labour very soon and gave me two doses of steroids to help babies lungs just in case. At 38 weeks I started to get contractions and my mucus plug came away. I had started the early stages of labour. I was getting contractions every 10 minutes for the first 3 days I got to 1cm dilated and it all stopped. 2 weeks later my labour started again 7.30pm on the 26th April By around midnight I was getting contractions every 5 minutes went to the hospital your only 2 cm go home relax and come back when your contractions are regular (they already were) At 5.30am on the 27th April they were still every 3-4minutes I went back to the hospital I was only 3 cm. again I returned home. By 4pm the same day the midwife said I was finally at 4cm and could go to the labour room.

By 8pm I was still at 4cm so the midwife broke my water to help me along this was uncomfortable and she commented about how thick my membrane (the sack) was. I continued to get regular contractions at 12am 28th the midwife checked and I was only 5.5cm they decided to put a hormone induction drip up. at this point, I decided to opt (at their recommendation) to have an epidural. after a little while, I said it wasn't working I was still in pain. they said it should be working. By 5am I could barely move my legs because they were so swollen my legs had doubled in size. By 6.40am ish, I felt ready to push. It took a while as the baby got stuck by his nose for a while.  My baby was born 7.48am after an exhausting 36-hour labour, the midwife said wow a big baby. I felt like saying "I know I just pushed it out of my vagina " but I didn't. I had a Boy who weighed a very healthy and big 9lb13oz.

It wasn't until he was born and they were cleaning him rather than just handing him to me that I got told he had got stressed and pooed in the womb. The moment I held my baby was the best moment of my life. I had made this little baby, I was a mummy. It then took the doctors an hour and a half to stitch me back together.