After my first baby, when my periods returned I knew my Endometriosis had got worse. I was getting worse bowel pain and other issues with my bowel too. The symptoms linked up with when I got my period and ovulated. I knew some of my increased pain was due to how badly I had torn after giving birth to my son. (I had torn so bad it took a surgeon an hour and a half to stitch me back together.)
When I finally saw a consultant I was told it wasn't my endometriosis getting worse but was the scares from childbirth and completely normal. yet again the consultants were trying to tell me they knew my body better than they did. they said there was no point in doing surgery and I needed to see a specialist nurse.
I saw the nurse they wanted me to see, she was lovely and caring, but was very sure that my pain was tight scar tissue, not endometriosis. She gave me a set of dilators (look like dildos in lots of different sizes) the idea is to massage the scares with the smallest and slowly work towards the larger ones. this didnt help at all I still had pain during sex and when I went to the toilet. I didn't have any follow-ups and was so fed up with the way I was always spoken too and treated that I didn't ask to go back to gynae's again. I hated them talking to me like I was making it out to be worse than it was and wasting there time.
As time went by I got worse and didn't go back to the hospital. I felt that I would be wasting their time and was just not coping with what was normal. but none of my friends who had babies were going through this. I felt torn with feeling like something was not right and that if I went to the hospital I would be wasting the hospitals time. I don't think its right that the doctors have such power over us to make anyone feel like this.
my mood dropped more at this point and I got really depressed, looking back I realise that I shouldn't have let them make me feel like that. no one should have the power to make you feel like this.
